What Does it Mean to be Me?
Who am I?
I love to write,
But what doe that mean?
I love to sing.
I love to laugh.
Music moves my soul,
But what does that mean?
I cry when I a sad,
I exercise to get fit.
I work heard when I am well,
And rest when I am sick.
I even love to go to school,
But what does that mean?
I may work hard,
And I may try to fit in,
But that is not the measure of success.
I know the chores that I dislike,
And the task I love,
But still have no clue where I am going.
I have taken many classes,
And passed quite a few.
My record is growing,
But still I do not know where I am going.
I once thought I would be a doctor,
Maybe even a lawyer.
But poor health and stress knocked out my desire.
Long travel and empty stomach
left my dreams for the future curled in a dismal heap on the dirty floor.
I longed to achieve,
But watched the iron door slam firmly close.
So what is success?
What determines ones future?
Where am I going?
Who will I be?
Will I ever achieve my measure of success?
So many questions
And not one answer.
I long to arrive,
But my plane has been hijacked.
My kidnapped dreams seem to have lost my address.
My fondest hopes have gone sky diving,
And every wish for the future is on vacation in the keys.
I guess I must wait patiently as life flies by.
My friends are either married or working
To busy to call on social nothing me.
And why would they talk to someone who only wonders about success
When they have arrived at the winner’s circle.
In their grown up eyes I am just a baby
Alone in an over sized playpen.
They are to busy changing the world to take notice
Of left behind me.
Still I wonder what will become of lonesome me.
I still have time to arrive
Someday one of my goals will have to come marching home
With its naughty little tail tucked apologetically between its leg.
How long can desire play hide and seek,
Success float lazily down the river,
And fortune be a hopscotch and a skip away.
Someday I will know who I am.
Maybe it will be a doctor,
Or something better than I ever dared to dream.
I like nursing,
Perhaps I will be a policewoman,
Or sales woman.
I might even grow up to be the president of a large company
Or possibly even a country.
No one but God knows my future right now.
For now all I see is a fog.
Is never very far away
And close your eyes in faith.
You may not receive the answer today,
But no longer will you be so afraid.
Peace can fill your careworn heart
And silence the laughing taunts of the unforgiving world.
And let you heart grasp with faith the promise of
An infinitely better